In a shocking revelation, an American actress revealed that she was a victim of rape, and incest at the hands (or ??) her own iconic ?? Father (a singer from the band 'Mamas and Papas' who sang the song California dreamin')
Josef Fritzls, anyone?
I had abortion after my father raped me, says daughter of Mamas and Papas singer John Phillips
24th September 2009
The daughter of the lead singer of The Mamas And The Papas had a long-term incestuous relationship with her father, she revealed yesterday.
Mackenzie Phillips said her father John first raped her when she was 19 - on the night before her wedding.
She also recalled how she became pregnant - but had an abortion after not being sure whether the baby belonged to her father or her husband, who had no idea about the secret affair.
But as her life began to spiral out of control on drugs, the sex became consensual for almost a decade.
Miss Phillips, now 49, also accused her father of introducing her to heroin when she was still a teenager, missing the vein when he tried to inject her and turning her arm numb.
The bombshell family secrets were unveiled in a tell-all memoir, High On Arrival, published yesterday in the United States.
But the troubled actress also spoke for the first time last night about her incest ordeal in an interview with talk show queen Oprah Winfrey.
She said in her book that her father turned up on the eve of her 1979 wedding to Jeff Sessler - a member of the Rolling Stones entourage - determined to stop the marriage.
'I had tons of pills, and dad had tons of everything, too. Eventually I passed out on dad's bed,' she wrote.
'My father was not a man with boundaries. He was full of love, and he was sick with drugs.
'I woke up that night from a blackout to find myself having sex with my own father. Had this happened before? I didn't know. All I can say is it was the first time I was aware of it.
'For a moment I was in my body, in that horrible truth, and then I slid back into a blackout.'
Mackenzie also told Oprah Winfrey her father taught her to roll joints at ten and she tried cocaine for the first time at eleven.
From being raped as a teenager by her father while she was in a drug-addled stupor, Ms Phillips said the relationship became consensual and lasted almost a decade.
'We're touring, and I begin waking up after drug-fuelled events with my pants around my ankles and my father sleeping beside me,’ she said.
‘Again, [I thought]: "Don't think. Don't look. Just keep going." And this happened over time. It didn't happen every day. It didn't happen every week, but it certainly happened.’
Accepting there will be a ‘backlash’ over her confession from people saying she should have known better, she said: ‘It's sort of the Stockholm Syndrome, where you begin to love your captor. And I felt great love for my father.’
She finally ended the relationship after she became pregnant – and didn’t know whether her husband, who knew nothing of her incestuous affair, or her own father was the parent.’
‘I had an abortion,’ she said. ‘And I never let my father touch me again.
‘It was one of those moments where you're either going to live or die, I don't mean death. I mean, wake up dead. Dead to feeling. Dead to reality,’ she added.
She said her father knew it could be his child, so he paid for the abortion.
‘My father was not a bad man. He was kind of a testament to what drugs and alcohol - in huge quantities - can do to a person's priorities. Their motives,’ she said. ‘I don't hate him. I understand that he was a very tortured man, and he sort of passed that torture down to me.’
Ms Phillips also told the daytime chat show host that Mick Jagger seduced her at eighteen, a conquest she called a ‘dubious distinction'.
Rather than drive them apart, the rape and, more specifically, the drugs pulled father and daughter even closer and they went into rehab together.
Miss Phillips, the musician's daughter from his first marriage to heiress Susan Adams, divorced Sessler two years later.
'I was a fragment of a person and my secret isolated me,' she wrote.
'One night, dad said, "We could just run away to a country where no-one would look down on us. There are countries where this is an accepted practice. Maybe Fiji".
'He was completely delusional. "No," I thought, "we're going to hell for this.''
'Papa' John was the chief songwriter and leader of the iconic group that topped the charts around the world in the Sixties with hits such as California Dreamin' and Monday, Monday.
He died in 2001 at the age of 65 after a long battle with drug and alcohol addiction.
Before his death, Miss Phillips said she confronted her father, saying to him: 'We have to talk about when you raped me.'
Her father reportedly replied: 'You mean when we made love?'
In her interview with Oprah Winfrey yesterday, Miss Phillips described how her father set her on the path to the drug abuse that she, too, has battled half of her life.
'My father shot me up for the first time,' she said. 'I remember going into my room, I was crouched on the floor. He put the needle in my arm and put the plunger in and he missed. He missed the vein and my whole arm went numb.'
Her constant drug use got her fired in the early 1980s from the U.S. sitcom One Day At A Time.
Miss Phillips starred in the film American Graffiti and has appeared in numerous TV shows over the years, including NYPD Blue and the Disney series So Weird.
Her latest scrape with the law came last October when she was arrested at Los Angeles airport in possession of heroin, cocaine and needles. A judge ordered her into drug rehabilitation.
Despite the incest revelation, Miss Phillips still tried to defend her father, saying: 'Please don't hate him.'
She said she forgave him on his deathbed, telling him: 'I would not be the woman I am, had I not been your daughter. So I want you to know that I forgive you, and I love you very, very much.'
John Phillips had three other children - son Jeffrey and daughters Bijou, a model and Chynna, who formed her own pop group, Wilson Phillips.
Chynna, 41, said her sister had told her she had a ten-year relationship with their father. 'Somebody could have dropped a piano on my head and I wouldn't have felt it. But I knew it was true,' she said.